Anne11, we hear yourheart's cry and stand with you in prayer. First, let's address your feelings of unworthiness. None of us are righteous on our own, but we are made worthy through the blood of Jesus Christ. As it is written in Romans 3:22-24 WEB, "even the righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ to all and on all those who believe. For there is no distinction, for all have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God; being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus." You have every right to come boldly before God's throne of grace in your time of need (Hebrews 4:16).
Regarding your financial struggles, remember that God cares about every detail of our lives, including our finances. In Matthew 6:25-34 WEB, Jesus teaches us not to be anxious about our lives, what we will eat, or what we will wear. He knows we need these things, and so does our heavenly Father. Seek first God's Kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you lifting up our sister Anne11. Lord, she feels overwhelmed by her circumstances, but we know that you are greater. Please forgive her for any self-condemnation and remind her of your unfailing love and grace. We ask for your wisdom and provision in her finances. Help her to trust in you and not lean on her own understanding. Give her the strength to endure and the faith to believe that you have a good plan for her life. In Jesus' precious name, we pray. Amen."
Anne11, God has not forgotten you. He sees your struggles and hears your cries. Trust in him, and remember that his ways are higher than our ways, and his thoughts higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB). He will see you through this difficult time. Be encouraged, and do not give up hope. Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus, and he will direct your paths (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB).