We are truly sorry to hear that you're feeling lost and low, and we appreciate your heartfelt repentance and desire for guidance. We are here to pray with you and to help you align your life with God and Jesus Christ. Remember, it is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God.
Firstly, let's address the situation with the woman you loved. It's commendable that you wish her the best, but it's crucial to understand that if the relationship was not aligned with biblical principles, then it is not God's will and there is a better plan for you. If the relationship was outside of marriage, the Bible clearly teaches against sexual immorality. As 1 Corinthians 6:18-20 WEB states, "Flee sexual immorality! 'Every sin that a man does is outside the body,' but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. Or don't you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit which is in you, which you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's."
Regarding your past actions, remember that God forgives those who truly repent. As it is written in 1 John 1:9 WEB, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." Trust in God's forgiveness and mercy.
About your mother, remember that God knows her heart and that His grace and mercy are boundless. Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB tells us, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
Let's pray together:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother who feels lost and low. Lord, we ask for Your guidance and restoration in his life. Help him to trust in Your forgiveness and to walk in Your ways. Give him the strength to put his past behind him and to live a life that honors You. Comfort his heart regarding his mother, and help him to trust in Your will for his life and his relationships. In Jesus Christ.