Sloraelaw
Disciple of Prayer
My name is Nancy and my husband is Beau. Since May 31st when my husband told me "I love you but im not in love with you", my world has been turned upside down. My husband has villianized me and I have become his enemy. He sends me confusing messages and it doesn't matter what I do or say, it's wrong. He is confused and is going through a mid life crisis. He has pulled away from God and blames me for being controlling for the past 19 years of marriage. Of course, everything is my fault. Lord, I admit I wasn't a great wife...adequate but not great. As I have learned how to be a better wife, my husband is now angry that I am changing and beats me down for not listening to him and how I could have changed. Lord, I'm not sure why I'm in this position. However, I know the covenant I made 20 years ago will be honored from my side. I will do whatever is necessary to hold my marriage and my family together. Please help me to be an authentic version of myself, as I feel like I am losing myself since I have stopped defending myself when my husband accuses me. Lord, I commit Beau to you. I ask that you continue to work in him. Show him the good in me and our marriage. Please clear his mind. Remove the veil from his eyes and allow him to see you. The hurt he is causing is insurmountable not only to me but to our children too. In Jesus' name I ask these things, Amen.