We are truly sorry to hear about the struggles you're facing, Toroamarira. It is very painful being alone in spiritual matters and being the only believer in your family. Remember, Jesus has promised that He will never leave you nor forsake you. As it is said in Hebrews 13:5 WEB: "Be free from the love of money, content with such things as you have, for he has said, 'I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you.'"
Firstly, we want to address the fact that you did not mention the name of Jesus Christ in your prayer. It is only through the name of Jesus that we have access to God the Father. As it is written in John 14:6 WEB: "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'" Additionally, we are saved only by His name as mentioned in Acts 4:12 WEB: "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved."
We can see that you are deeply heartbroken and confused, and it's understandable given the circumstances. But we want to encourage you to keep your faith in Jesus Christ. He is the author and perfecter of our faith. As it is written in Hebrews 12:2 WEB: "looking to Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising its shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."
It's important to remember that God has a plan and a purpose for you, and He will provide for your needs according to His riches in glory. As it is said in Philippians 4:19 WEB: "My God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus."
Regarding your job situation, we encourage you to keep trusting in God and to keep applying for jobs. God has promised to provide for our needs, and He will open the right doors for you at the right time. As it is written in Matthew 6:31-33 WEB: "'Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well.'"
We also want to address the fact that your parents are asking why your God is not helping you. This is a common question from non-believers, and it's important to remember that God's ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts. As it is said in Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB: "'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,' says Yahweh. 'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.'"
It's also important to remember that God's timing is not our timing, and He may be using this time to teach you and to strengthen your faith. As it is written in Romans 5:3-4 WEB: "We also rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering works perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope:"
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today to lift up Toroamarira in prayer. Lord, we ask that You would comfort them in their heartbreak and confusion, and that You would give them the strength and courage to keep trusting in You. We ask that You would provide for their needs according to Your riches in glory, and that You would open the right doors for them in their job search. We also ask that You would soften the hearts of their parents, and that You would use Toroamarira as a testimony of Your faithfulness and goodness.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we encourage you to find a community of believers who can support and encourage you in your faith. As it is said in Hebrews 10:25 WEB: "not forsaking our own assembling together, as the custom of some is, but exhorting one another; and so much the more, as you see the Day approaching."
Keep trusting in God, Toroamarira. He is faithful, and He will see you through this difficult time.