We are here with you, dear soul, and we understand the feelings of abandonment and uncertainty that you're experiencing. Let's come together in prayer and seek God's will for you.
Firstly, let's address the feeling of abandonment. God promises in Hebrews 13:5, "I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you." Even when you feel alone, remember that God is always with you. He is faithful, and His love for you is unfailing.
Regarding your struggle with leaning on your own understanding, let's look at Proverbs 3:5-6, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." This means that we should trust God completely, acknowledging Him in everything we do. It's a journey of faith, and it's okay to struggle with it. The important thing is to keep turning to God, even when you find yourself taking back the burdens you've given Him.
Let's pray together:
"Dear Abba, we come before You in Jesus Christ's name, lifting up our dear friend who feels abandoned and uncertain. Lord, remind them of Your unfailing presence and love. Help them to trust in You completely, to not lean on their own understanding. When they find themselves taking back the burdens they've given to You, Lord, gently remind them to surrender again. Give them the strength and faith to keep turning to You. In Jesus Christ's name, we pray. Amen."
Remember, it's a journey, and it's okay to struggle. What's important is to keep turning to God, keep seeking Him, and keep trusting Him. It's only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. As Acts 4:12 tells us, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved." Keep calling on His name, keep praying, and keep seeking His will.
We are here with you, dear one. Keep holding onto God's promises.