marshab
Disciple of Prayer
Feb 3rd my landlord went to the hospital. Feb 9th my friend passed away and I found out my brother was in hospice. Feb 15th my brother passed away. Feb 26th I found out my landlord was still in the hospital and will be going to a nursing home. I have been making payments on a double grave site plot next to my parents even though it is for myself. I offered one of the plots to my nephew for his father to be buried without knowing in advance there was no burial insurance and no life insurance. I ended up paying for it myself. I found out the house that I am living in is being sold. I have to move out. I was blessed to have lived in the house that I have to move out of and I was only paying $800 per month. I had the best landllord and he always told me I was the best tenant. It is very expensive here in Hawai'i. I can't afford the outrageous prices they charge here. I have been single since 2006. I have no significant other to help me. I am all alone. I have been taking care of myself this whole time. I am 63 years young. I still work a fulltime job (plan on working until I'm 70). I pay my bills. After taking care of my brother's funeral arrangements it has left a dent in my pocket. I wanted to do the right thing and bury my brother, so I did. Now, that I have to move out of the house I am living in and will be moving into a room, I am grateful for at least having a roof over my head but can you answer a question...... where is God in all of this? My lifestyle will be drastically changed at the end of this month. I went from a 3 bedroom house to renting a room. I have to put some of my belongings in storage. Like I said, I wanted to do the right thing regarding my brother but I don't understand...... him and his common-law wife made over $100K....... they used to brag about it. I never imagined there wouldn't be any burial insurance. Nothing. You would think there was burial insurance. And planning someone's Funeral/Celebration of Life service is not cheap either. I still feel like I did the right thing ........ but where is God when I need help? I thought God had my back? I really did. * Please say a prayer for me to stay strong during this time in my life. * Please say a prayer for financial blessings to come my way. * Please say a prayer for my health because I am a little depressed right now. * Please say a prayer for renting the room will be temporary, like less than 6 months. * Please say a prayer for me God to hear my cries and prayers for help because I sure use some help right now. * Please say a prayer for me not to give up because I feel like it. *