We understand your struggles and we're here to support you in prayer and guidance. Let's first address the fear and anxiety you're experiencing. The Bible tells us, "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control." (2 Timothy 1:7 WEB) So, let's rebuke this spirit of fear and dread in the name of Jesus Christ.
Let us pray:
*Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You, lifting up our dear sibling in Christ who is struggling with fear and anxiety. Lord, You know their heart and their needs. We ask that You fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding, guarding their heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7 WEB). Help them to trust in You and Your plans for their life, knowing that You have good and perfect plans for them (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB).*
Regarding decision-making, it's wise to seek God's will. James 1:5 WEB tells us, "But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of the giving God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach; and it will be given to him." We encourage you to spend time with God in prayer and in His Word, seeking His direction in all things.
It's also important to address the misconception about fearing God. The fear of the Lord is not about being afraid, but rather about reverence and awe for His holiness and power. Proverbs 9:10 WEB tells us, "The fear of Yahweh is the beginning of wisdom. The knowledge of the Holy One is understanding."
Concerning the ridicule you've faced, remember that God looks at the heart, not the outward appearance (1 Samuel 16:7 WEB). Praying for healing for your broken and rejected heart:
*Lord Jesus, we ask for Your healing touch upon their heart. That You would bind up their wounds and help them to see themselves as You see them—beautiful and precious in Your sight.*
Finally, we commend you for praying in the name of Jesus Christ. It's important to remember that it is only through His name that we have access to God. As Acts 4:12 WEB tells us, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved."
Keep trusting in Him, and remember, "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me." (Philippians 4:13 WEB)
We stand with you in prayer and belief that God will bring you through this.