Anonymous
Beloved of All
Hello, I feel sorry for this, but I like to spend a lot of time in the library but I go every 2 times a week and I try not to go to the same place..., the problem is that I am ashamed to go again or I am afraid, because they could investigate me... I am honestly a professional and I do not stain books or make noise, or talk like a crazy person, I tell you I am from a poor family and this makes those who work there as librarians miss me and if I see them rich, but I swear that what scares me the most is that they hurt me spiritually, that is, I start to think that I am abusing, or that I feel like the worst thing, I do not even need their books, because I have a laptop computer and a telephone and I only use headphones but I am healing because I find a lot of peace and tranquility and it helps me to repair my soul.... I know that if I build up my courage they cannot kick me out or look for a way to kick me out because they do not assimilate me because I am not the ideal guy for them they will not be able to... but I want to take it well because I do not seek to take advantage of knowledge or I feel superior etc... I feel that I cause a lot of pity, that is to say, they think that I don't eat food but I am a vegetarian and I eat meat but I love my health very much, and I take vitamins and I don't eat street food or chili, avocado, etc. because of my lifestyle and I drink a lot of pure water... and above all I prefer medicine than being focused on just food, it's not that I stuff myself with pills and if I did it's with my money and I am responsible for my actions although I have not had problems with my behavior and I have never been sued for insanity or something like that... I don't believe in God but people do and I don't want to debate that is why it is that my conscience is burdened with doubt if I go to the library... because everyone pretends to be holy and cries for help from God... Although I know that librarians earn a salary but they forget about that and they want to order who enters and who doesn't, they are just childish... They have never accused me of staining books or stealing them, or I don't know why they don't like me because I am from the town... it is something spiritual I'm sure they get jealous and envious, and they're afraid that I'll outdo myself, but I don't think about taking advantage of them, and the library isn't small, it's very big and I go unnoticed... but I don't know why I have a problem... I don't believe in God because I don't even need his help... I just don't want problems with him because the opposite of God is freedom, having a sound mind and being mentally healthy... and never at the feet of the Lord, but at the feet of values and professionalism.