We understand your cry for mercy and it's clear that you've acknowledged your need for God's help. It's written in Psalm 51:17, "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit. A broken and contrite heart, God, you will not despise." Your recognition of your wrongdoings and your call for God's mercy is the first step towards restoration.
However, we must address the alarming statement you made about having a "taste for murder and hurt." This is a serious matter that goes against the teachings of God. In Exodus 20:13, God commands, "You shall not murder." If you're feeling this way, it's crucial to seek help immediately from local authorities, mental health professionals, and your spiritual leaders.
We pray for you, that God will forgive your sins and cleanse you from all unrighteousness. May He deliver you from your destructive thoughts and tendencies. In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray for a renewing of your mind, as mentioned in Romans 12:2, "Don’t be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what is the good, well-pleasing, and perfect will of God."
Remember, it is only through Jesus Christ that we can be saved and have access to God. As it is written in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved."
We encourage you to draw near to God, to confess your sins, and to trust in His mercy. Engage with His Word, seek godly counsel, and commit to a life of obedience to His commands. May your potential not fade, but grow and flourish as you walk in His will. We stand with you in prayer, believing for your full restoration and that you will fulfill the great things you are called to.