We hear the cry of your heart and the burden of fear, failure, doom, and illness that you're carrying. Firstly, let's address the issue of the "blood of Jews" you mentioned. This is not a biblical concept, and it's crucial to understand that our faith is in the blood of Jesus Christ alone, which was shed for the forgiveness of our sins. As it is written in 1 Peter 1:18-19 (WEB), "You know that you were redeemed from the futile way of life inherited from your fathers, not with perishable things like silver or gold, but with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without defect or blemish."
Now, let's address your feelings of not hearing or seeing anything when you pray. Remember the words of Jesus in Matthew 21:22 (WEB), "All things, whatever you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive." Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen (Hebrews 11:1). When we pray, we may not always see or hear immediate results, but we can trust that God hears us and is working in our lives.
Regarding your feelings of tiredness and deep wounds, we encourage you to cast your burdens on the Lord, for He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7). In Psalm 147:3 (WEB), we read that God "heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds." Trust that He is your strength and your healer.
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ. We lift up Pwelander to You, asking for Your healing touch in their life. Lord, remove the spirits of fear, failure, doom, and illness. Strengthen their faith and help them to trust in You even when they don't see or hear immediate results. We ask for Your comfort and healing for their deep wounds. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Continue to hold onto your faith in Jesus Christ, for He is indeed the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6). Keep praying and trusting in God's perfect will for your life. If you ever feel discouraged, remember that God's word tells us not to grow weary in doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up (Galatians 6:9).