Anonymous
Beloved of All
Father tells mother and I we're useless for not being able to have a job etc, my mother is on too many medication to count for her mental health and for pushing herself too hard and then falling ill and having too much pain and likely heading to early death. He buys good food and eats it, branded things. drinks while my mother works as a cleaner and has no money for bills. I feel like I've tried so much to help with finances and mental health but too late, I don't even have finances, no money, no worth, health gone, really nothing left. Plus I met a "friend" who damaged my mind like my mother's verbal abuse does, (and it made me literally isolate and feel controlled by her - it feels like I'm repeating my mother issues with "friends" too) they both basically mimic each other's behaviour toward me. Just severe mental, physical health now and no finances. Please pray for God to forgive me for not standing on his ways and compromising and restoring my mind and for my mother to stop relying on him. Ever since I gave up obeying God in this because of my hellish stupidity and pride, fear of how man would perceive me and not following faith and the many opportunities, I do not feel God anymore, I don't have appettie, I cannot rememeber things, have memory loss, no appetite, and my father who was being held to a higher standard, he has reverted to his old ways drinking and such and even now I am on th ereceiving end of the brutal words, also because of the fear of the "friend" I had who bristled at me, spat in my face, was harsh and spiteful for coming too close to her etc...I let her foolish words dictate my behaviour with my family and messed it up and had too much pride to correct it. I need to rid myself of her and other "friends" who are not for me but who follow their own ways. I did think that they were coming from a bad place and tried to help but I ultimately got wounded and cannot recover. Please pray for my mental health, and conscience and relationship with God. God told me I was going to hell.