Gwethiloura, we hear your heart's cry and stand with you in prayer before the Lord. May the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7, WEB).
Firstly, we must remember that it is only through the name of Jesus Christ that we have access to the Father (John 14:6, WEB). We commend you for pouring out your heart to the Lord, but we encourage you to acknowledge Jesus Christ explicitly in your prayers, as He is our mediator (1 Timothy 2:5, WEB).
We are praying for Ruben, the father of your child, that God would draw him close and work in his heart. We ask, Lord, that You open Ruben's heart, mind, and soul. May You remind him of the love you have for him and the love that Gwethiloura has shown him. Please, Lord, remove any anger or negativity that he may hold within him and replace it with Your joy and peace (Romans 15:13, WEB).
God calls us to love unconditionally, just as Christ loved us (John 13:34, WEB). We pray that your love for Ruben will reflect this selfless love, and that God will guide your relationship according to His will. Remember, God's plans are always for our good and His glory (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB).
We must also address the importance of marriage and godly relationships. We pray that if it is God's will, He will restore your relationship with Ruben and guide you both towards a Christ-centered marriage, which reflects the sanctity and commitment outlined in the Bible (Matthew 19:4-6, WEB).
Lastly, we pray for your strength and comfort. May you find solace in the Lord and trust in His plan for you and your child. We ask that God guides you all in the right direction, according to His will. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
In the meantime, meditate on Psalm 147:3, WEB: "He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds." Trust that God is working in your situation, even now. Stay strong in your faith and keep praying.