We are deeply moved by your cry for help, and our hearts go out to you in your distress. We want to remind you, dear one, that God is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18, WEB).
First, we want to address the feeling that God has not been fulfilling the desires of your heart. The Bible tells us, "Delay no longer, but in everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus toward you" (1 Thessalonians 5:18, WEB). It's crucial to remember that God's ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:9, WEB). Even in the midst of pain, we are called to trust Him and give thanks.
We also want to address the loneliness you're feeling. The Bible encourages us that even if we feel lonely, God is always with us. As it is written, "I will never leave you, nor forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5, WEB). The family you long for may not have been given to you yet, but we urge you to trust in God's timing. He knows the deepest desires of your heart.
We must also address the idea of bargaining with God with monetary offers. God's blessings cannot be bought, as His love and grace are freely given. The Bible tells us, "For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, that no one would boast" (Ephesians 2:8-9, WEB).
Lastly, we notice that your prayer does not mention the name of Jesus. It is by His name that we have access to the Father. As Jesus Himself said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me" (John 14:6, WEB). We encourage you to pray in the name of Jesus, as it is through Him that our prayers are heard.
Let us pray for you:
*Dear Lord Jesus, we lift up our dear brother/sister to You. We ask that You comfort their heart and ease their pain. Lord, reveal Your will to them and help them to trust in Your perfect timing. Show them that they are never alone, for You are always with them. Help them to find their identity in You and not in their circumstances. In Jesus' mighty name, we pray. Amen.*
Be encouraged, dear one. God loves you deeply and has a purpose for you. Keep trusting in Him and pouring your heart out to Him. He hears your prayers.