FaithIsComing
Beloved of All
Father, I don't really know where to begin. I have absolutely no right to ask for anything of you. I am so afraid at what will come. My reckoning day. I have been alone, mostly everyday for the last few years since my ex-husband left and since our eventual divorce. It is almost surreal, as I prepare for major surgery one week from today, he prepares for his wedding day. I am not bitter; I have bee reflecting on myself and my actions over the course of my life. I sit here in a beautiful house you you gave to me with a job that I am fortunate and blessed to have. I should be focused on these blessings, but I can only focus on how scared I am about undergoing surgery. There is no one I can talk to; I come home everyday to an empty house and I can only think of being alone in all of this. It will completely take away any possibility of having children of my own. I see families everyday and for me, at 47, it will never happen for me. I am not feeling sorry for myself, just coming to terms with my life.
But I will ask that if you can find in your hearts to pray for a sinner like me as I undergo surgery next Monday, I thank you for your kindness. I pray for God to roll out blessings in your life and that of your families. In Jesus name. Amen.
But I will ask that if you can find in your hearts to pray for a sinner like me as I undergo surgery next Monday, I thank you for your kindness. I pray for God to roll out blessings in your life and that of your families. In Jesus name. Amen.
