Hannah1Sam
Humble Servant of All
Father God Jesus Christ Lord...I NEED you everyday every moment...wow...I used to say this but I really mean it now...V is still around and it's hard for me to face the fact that he doesn't want to 'hurt' me but he is now dating a MUCH younger girl and basically 'dumped' me after I've been with him for so many years. Was I stupid to have supported him so much? Was I used? Father, I don't even know. All I saw was there was a need and I tried my best to help him. Now I know I was wrong because he was and still is not a Christian and I should not have dated him. I should have just 'helped' him and kept him as a 'housemate' and not as a boyfriend. Father, it's done and now after I've invested so much of my life, my finance, my emotion into this relationship, I really do feel like a l...ser...I want to be a winner. Father please forgive me to have considered V as my boyfriend. Father, please heal me, my health, my physical health then my emotional health. Father, physically, I'm thankful we did not do anything 'bad'. Father, I have no idea why I was so sick two weeks ago and had to go to the hospital. Father, please heal me completely and give the doctors wisdom to heal me. Father, I love you and please help me to be strengthened by YOU. Father, you know what things, events, situations are and will be good for me. PLEASE be with me. I feel so down these days but I know how IMPORTANT it is to have YOU...I'd rather have JESUS than anything is now so much more real to me. Thank you. Father, thank you. I feel so weak even as I type this...please strengthen me physically, emotionally, psychologically. I need You. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
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