Anonymous
Beloved of All
Father God I want to thank you for the wisdom and guidance you given me everyday. Lately I’m lost, My marriage was doing okay, all of a sudden I don’t know what happened. My mother in law got sick, I wanted to help but I was told by my husband that his mother don’t want to see me or come near her or allow me to help out at all. It broke my heart cuz I don’t know what I did wrong. Now I’m not allowed to call her number after I called and ask how she is doing. Now my husband is hardly home his at his moms 24/7 which I don’t mind at all. But now his always angry and wanting to beat me. His sister is coming down I’m not allow to be around at all. So I’m just cluelessly just going to work and coming home to an empty house. So now I just go workout after work and come home. It’s sad. But it’s the truth. God please keep peace in my heart. I know I love my husband very much. Even when I know I can help I’m not allowed. Just watching 24 years of marriage going down the drain in two weeks. When my husband come home he don’t look at me or talk to me or even call or answer any of my calls or text. But quick to sent me a text to go shopping for what his mom needs or he needs as if I am a slave. So I just quietly do it. My husband spend all day at his mom goes to school come home and go there. I pray his mom will recover well which she is. It’s amazing how people goes to church but yet so evil in their hearts. So now I’m not allow to talk, call or go visit. But I’m sure later on she’s going to tell my husband I don’t want to talk to her I don’t want her to stay or come over the house but yet I was told by her and my husband never to call her or visit her. I’m so scared now when my husband comes yesterday he was so angry at me so I told him on a text well I will wait for my beating when you come home. I never been so nervous but the grace of God he saw that I was crying and scared when he came home. For some reason he didn’t beat me so thank you Jesus. I am waiting for an opportunity from ATF I applied for. I know I will get it so I can go to the academy and a site far away from home so I can at least be free for a bit and come home after. I know God open the door for ATF. But I pray his mom is feeling better. It’s sad especially when my husband and his mom knows that I’m motherless and fatherless. Both my parents passed it’s hard but it’s okay. I will stay strong and keep my head up and be positive. And know that God will make a way. Lord I don’t know what is going on but I am letting go and let you take the wheel. I will stay at peace in my heart. Keep kindness and compassion in my heart. I know that my redeemer lives