FATHER GOD, I thank you for another morning, another ...

[rofo72]

FATHER GOD, I thank you for another morning, another opportunity to be free to worship and love YOU. I am still truggling in confusion about the situation that is overwhelming me. I have no direction and no energy to put into saving myself from the rejection and humiliation I am going through because of others anger at me for ruining a urprise I had no idea was happening at a time that I was taking care of some old emotional baggage and dealing with family problems. I am now under the attack of those who were hurt without me intending to harm anyone, just handle my own garbage so i could move onto the future without looking back, I was guilty of hurting the man that I did not even know was taking our relationship seriously. I am now handling the repercussions and revenge of the one that I DID NOT INTENTIONALLY HURT or reject. I know YOU know my heart that I was under the impression that this man was never going to get married, I asked and was told that my faithfullness was not required, just a request that I remain dedicated too sobriety, I remained monogamas (sic) anyhow and prepared my heart to accept this relationship was one with no direction and thought that since I had asked and received the answer that I had no value except to stay away from trouble, which I did do better than that, I stopped drinking. I had no clue that an event was scheduled around a visit to my family to see if things between had been resolved enough to remain in contact, the trip went bad all the way around and since then I have been subjected to lies and betrayals and intentional emotional abuse. I have been ridiculed once again by him and his people, all of whom have a vengence to feed where I am concerned and it is for the purpose of rejecting me because I took his requirments and adjusted my heart to that. Now I am stuck with them being glad and continuing to lie and make me look stupid and make others think he is not with me, there are also rumors of infidelity and on going contact with the people he met because of me, causing more division and animosity than had already existed. I pray that you remove their lies and remove the people who want to see me struggle and pay for the situation I caused to go wrong without even knowing I did anything to them. I am aware that these old aquaintences and my boyfriend continue to lie and act like I am desrving of ruining their public party. GOD YOU see what cannot, YOU resolve what I cannot resolve, and YOU cause all things to work together for YOUR good and for YOUR glory. I am in a major depression and feel the ongoing deception is making me weak and I feel like it is important that I have the truth and then everyone can decide if it all worth dying over. I was told that it vwas a good thing for me to have cancer by this man in his anger and frustration, bit it is in my head that the intention is to be the cause of a suicide and a ten fold attack , that is unjust and unwarrented due to lack of knowledge that I was being set up, and it iis also an issue to regain joy in this complete organized lie. I also have made an attempt to give forgiveness for sexual relations he had while with me, and he still denies this, although it is wwell known, the same woman had sex with my ex husband also, so I understand iit her own desire to be me and she is jealous and a person digging for gold, and I would like to say i forgive her as well. I ask that you allow me to have financial freedom so that I may chose something other than suicide for the future. I am needing YOU to direct the heart of the man that is telling me he loves me, and saying he is in love with me, he still wishes for me to uffer and I have done that, and I do not deserve more suffering for something thyat I would have never done had I known it was more than a may-dec romance. Things are messed up and I ak for YOU to make things clear to me befor things become too damaged to repair. i also am having trouble in my abdomen, it is hurting and I am not getting any reaonable diagnosis. I wait upon YOUR word FATHER as to how I should handle the hurt feelings ans anger of the man I wanted to marry, and have had nothing but the bet intentions towards him and hope he find a place of understanding. In JESUS name amen.

 

[madamlouvet]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Christine]

I prayed for your request today, in Jesus' Name, according to God's perfect will.

 

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