We understand that you're going through a challenging time in your spiritual journey, Ratar. It's important to remember that God is faithful, and He will strengthen and establish you (1 Peter 5:10 WEB).
Firstly, let's address the heart of the issue. The Bible tells us in James 1:6-7 WEB, "But let him ask in faith, without any wavering, for he who wavers is like a wave of the sea, driven with the wind and tossed. For let that man not think that he will receive anything from the Lord." Doubt can hinder our prayers and our relationship with God. It's normal to have doubts, but it's crucial to address them and seek God's face amidst them.
In Mark 9:24 WEB, a man cried out to Jesus, "I believe, help my unbelief!" Even in his doubt, he reached out to Jesus. Similarly, we encourage you to pour out your doubts and fears to God in honest prayer.
Regarding worship, it's not just about going through the motions; it's about connecting with God heart to heart. In John 4:24 WEB, Jesus said, "God is spirit, and those who worship him must worship in spirit and truth." Ask God to renew your heart and spirit during your times of worship.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up Ratar to you, in the mighty name of Jesus. We confess that our faith wavers at times, Lord, but we ask for Your grace and mercy to strengthen Ratar's faith. Cast out any doubt that may be lingering in their heart, and renew their spirit. Help them to fix their mind on You during worship, Lord, and to draw near to You with their heart.
Father, we also pray for protection over Ratar's mind. Help them to take every thought captive to obey Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5 WEB). Surround them with Your love, and remind them of Your goodness and faithfulness. Stir up a fresh hunger for Your Word and presence in their life, Lord.
Remember, Ratar, that drawing near to God requires effort on our part too. Psalm 1:2 WEB tells us that the blessed man delights "in Yahweh’s law. On his law he meditates day and night." Make spending time with God a priority, and He will honor that.
Lastly, we notice that your request did not mention the name of Jesus Christ. It is only by His name that we have access to God. As it says in John 14:6, Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. In Acts 4:12, it is also mentioned: There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved. We encourage you to fix your heart and mind on Jesus Christ, the author and perfecter of your faith.
We are standing with you in prayer, Ratar. Be encouraged, and keep seeking God's face.