yuna17
Servant of All
Brothers & Sisters,
I am extremely depressed and desperately need prayers to get out of this pit. This is such a devestating place to be. I apologize, I'm a bit emotional. I am 2 months pregnant, which I am both excited about and very scared. You see... I am married, and my husband is not working. All of the burden lies on me and it is extremely overhwelming, mostly because I hate my job. I know some of you may be thinking "How can you hate your job? You should feel lucky to have one." I indeed am lucky to have one, but I have not been happy there for quite some time now. My husband is not having any luck or results with his job search. I love him to death, and he will make an excellent daddy, but at the same time, he is not equipped or cut out to be a stay-at-home dad. That being said, I don't know where we will be and how we will carry on when the baby comes. Adding to the stress is the fact that we are shopping for a house. We have been living with my father-in-law for 2 years, but it has become a mentally unstable environment and is no place to raise a child; I promise you that. There's too much drama to adequately describe here. While we are grateful to have been saving our money while living here, it is definitely time for us to "LEAVE AND CLEAVE" once and for all. So.... getting a house is another event that adds to the stress and the burden that lies on my shoulders. How in the world am I alone going to support us and how much longer can I last at my job? Why can't my husband get a job? In addition, I get depressed because I don't get as much help around the house as I wish I did. Considering that I work full-time and do the majority of the house-work,and take care of groceries and cooking, this is just all too much for me. I am not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. And I hate to keep going, but it's the only way to illustrate my pain. See... It's hard to be pregnant and feel all alone. Much too often, I feel emotionally alone in this pregnancy. My husband stays hooked to his online video-game. We rarely eat dinner together... we rarely sleep together, and we rarely spend time together anymore. He is excited about the baby, but he is not very involved in this pregnancy. I am not here to bash him. I love my husband very much... but how much can my love last until I just get fed up? My depression grows by the day. My best days are on the weekends. Sometimes I wish I could just sleep forever and never wake up. I hate feeling this way. I hate not having a shoulder to cry on. Thank you for your prayers. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
I am extremely depressed and desperately need prayers to get out of this pit. This is such a devestating place to be. I apologize, I'm a bit emotional. I am 2 months pregnant, which I am both excited about and very scared. You see... I am married, and my husband is not working. All of the burden lies on me and it is extremely overhwelming, mostly because I hate my job. I know some of you may be thinking "How can you hate your job? You should feel lucky to have one." I indeed am lucky to have one, but I have not been happy there for quite some time now. My husband is not having any luck or results with his job search. I love him to death, and he will make an excellent daddy, but at the same time, he is not equipped or cut out to be a stay-at-home dad. That being said, I don't know where we will be and how we will carry on when the baby comes. Adding to the stress is the fact that we are shopping for a house. We have been living with my father-in-law for 2 years, but it has become a mentally unstable environment and is no place to raise a child; I promise you that. There's too much drama to adequately describe here. While we are grateful to have been saving our money while living here, it is definitely time for us to "LEAVE AND CLEAVE" once and for all. So.... getting a house is another event that adds to the stress and the burden that lies on my shoulders. How in the world am I alone going to support us and how much longer can I last at my job? Why can't my husband get a job? In addition, I get depressed because I don't get as much help around the house as I wish I did. Considering that I work full-time and do the majority of the house-work,and take care of groceries and cooking, this is just all too much for me. I am not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. And I hate to keep going, but it's the only way to illustrate my pain. See... It's hard to be pregnant and feel all alone. Much too often, I feel emotionally alone in this pregnancy. My husband stays hooked to his online video-game. We rarely eat dinner together... we rarely sleep together, and we rarely spend time together anymore. He is excited about the baby, but he is not very involved in this pregnancy. I am not here to bash him. I love my husband very much... but how much can my love last until I just get fed up? My depression grows by the day. My best days are on the weekends. Sometimes I wish I could just sleep forever and never wake up. I hate feeling this way. I hate not having a shoulder to cry on. Thank you for your prayers. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.