Shathesca
Humble Servant
Extended Peace---Peace with all of us who pray together. So many supporters of prayer and affirmations of encouragement. Many months have passed in emotional pain and sorrow. I've talked with God on so many late nights. I've cried in gut wrenching pain from the loss of my mother to my wife who is suffering from Marijuana induced schizophrenia. She never has been kind to me once during those times when I needed her. I almost gave up. But brother James encouraged me and the Encourager and many others got me to another day. This has been very difficult. But it is part of the way God wants me to become a stronger man. I've been starved and homeless and attacked and insulted and left alone but I haven't given up on God or myself. I have been reading the Bible outloud in a local cemetery for the last 3 days. I thought maybe the dead would appreciate it. It's serene there and I wonder about my death. I have no one anymore. I'm embarrassed to admit I failed. I miss and ache for my wife who was my best friend but she has become very dark and she acts possessed by a demon or an alternate personality. I worry about her every day. I've faced tremendous problems and fears that almost took me under. Then my older sister got diagnosed with cancer. I now worry about her. I try to send her some things and she likes it but it's not easy. I don't think this is a test. But everything has hit at once. I am married but separated. My mom passed and I haven't grieved yet. I can't see my sister and I'm homeless but I have shelter. I work with horses but I need a miraculous new horse training offer. If God has a plan then I would like prayers for it to come. I also want to ask for prayers for y'all that pray for me. Thank y'all. You're all I have left right now. Don't give up on your faith. We'll see blessings and favor soon. The turn around is about to happen. To all of y'all God bless. Amen