Elizabeth F
Humble Servant of All
I don't mean to sound self pitying but I can honestly say that I am existing and not living I was confined to bed for six years due to many very painful physical illnesses along with mental illnesses. During this time many truly awful things have happened including the loss of many loved ones and being in hospital twice , once for two months. Then recently my dear sister Margaret became really ill due to severe diverticulitis and was in hospital for a few days and since she came home three weeks ago she has been confined to bed and I have to care for her even though I am not fit and it is making my pain much worse I can't sleep because of the pain so am exhausted. I am worried about Margaret as she isn't getting any better I have to be honest I even wonder whether God is there as I cry for help which doesn't come. I have reached out to many people for help. I have the added worry of a change of antidepressant and upcoming surgery to have a biliary stent removed. I am not fit for this and can't leave Margaret but it is dangerous for it to stay in place. I honestly can't go on living this miserable life Father God I come to you exhausted in mind and body and have to confess I have really been doubting your existence as prayer after prayer goes unanswered. I cannot deal with the unbearable physical pain and the torture of mental illness. It is breaking my heart to see my sister Margaret si unwell and weak and I am really worried about her. Please Father God have mercy on us and end our suffering. In Jesus' name Amen