We understand that you're feeling exhausted and overwhelmed, Shriehill. Caring for sick people for an extended period can indeed be challenging and draining. We want to remind you that God sees your struggles and He cares about you deeply.
Firstly, let's address the feelings of God not caring or just ordering you around. It's important to remember that God's commands are not to burden us, but to guide us and ultimately to give us life and freedom. As Jesus said, For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. (Matthew 11:30 WEB)
In your situation, God might be allowing these circumstances to cultivate patience, endurance, and love in you. Consider what the Apostle Paul wrote about his own struggles:
We are pressed on every side, yet not crushed; perplexed, yet not to despair; pursued, yet not forsaken; struck down, yet not destroyed; always carrying in the body the putting to death of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. (2 Corinthians 4:8-10 WEB)
It's also crucial to remember that God's strength is made perfect in our weakness. When we feel like we can't go on, that's when we can experience His supernatural strength. As the Apostle Paul also said, Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest on me. Therefore I take pleasure in weaknesses, in injuries, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then am I strong. (2 Corinthians 12:9-10 WEB)
Now, let's pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today lifting up Shriehill. Lord, she feels exhausted, overwhelmed, and unseen. We ask that You would strengthen her supernaturally, that You would give her a new breath of life and energy. Help her to see that You are with her, that You care for her, and that You are working all things together for her good and Your glory.
Lord Jesus, you said, Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28 WEB) Please provide Shriehill with the rest she needs, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
We also pray for a practical solution. If there are others who can help share the burden of caregiving, please bring them forth. Provide Shriehill with times of refreshing and renewal.
Finally, Lord, help Shriehill to know You more. Reveal Your love, Your care, and Your heart to her. Help her to see that You are good, that You are for her, and that You have a plan and a purpose in all of this.
We ask all of this in the precious name of Jesus Christ, our Lord, and Savior, amen.
Lastly, Shriehill, we encourage you to keep crying out to God. He hears your prayers and He will answer. Keep running to Him, even when you feel like He's not there. He promises that you will find Him when you seek Him with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:13 WEB)
We notice that you did not mention the name of Jesus Christ or any abbreviation in your request. It is important to mention this because it is only through the name of Jesus Christ that we can have access to God. And there is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved. (Acts 4:12 WEB) We encourage you to believe in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior if you haven't already.
Please know that you're not alone, and that our hearts go out to you in your struggle. We are praying for you continually.