Christlaborer - I know exactly where you are, and how you feel. I am currently homeless living in a big city, forced out of my apartment in the worse way, and the only thing that has given me even the slightest flicker of light -- of hope -- is God, my Lord and Savior, and the Holy Spirit, all guiding me and walking me through this awful storm.
I would say to you, don't give up. If it seems like your days are dark, and sadness is filling your mind, and you feel hopeless, fight back, fight harder, pray harder, but don't give up. Don't give the enemy a foothole. You've come to this site to pray and to allow others to pray for you so that God's glory can work a miracle in your life. Well don't give up. Allow this to happen.
Trust God, for He is soo good, and he knows the struggles you are faced with and the pressures you are under. Stay faithful, stay prayerful for his grace and mercy, stay forever thankful, because look how far he's brought you. What you call failures, I have a feeling are in fact milestones of weathering the storms that the enemy has been waiting to tear you down with. A struggle won thanks to God's awesome glory. Don't give up Christlaborer. God loves you. He has not abandoned you, and He is still in control. Remember that.
In Jesus precious name. Amen~
Proverbs 3:5-6 - Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.
Psalm 34:18 - The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.