Akarpelos
Disciple of Prayer
My ex and I, while he told me we could be friends, haven't spoken in over weeks. I've been having intense anxiety and depression since last year, and when he left, I snapped. I am so heartbroken, because we fell out of love but now that he's gone, I realized that I love him and I will never forget how God told me this one day before: "See that man before you? I have great, perfect, plans for him."
I used to pray for a lot of things, and now I pray that Jesus Christ encounters my ex. And if it is in God's will, I pray that I am part of that plans. Not just as a memory, or a friend, or an enemy, or a thing of the past. I hope I could be part of Christ's plans for my ex as his, hopefully, wife. I pray that my ex realizes how God has been so good to him, how God has something so perfect for him.
My heart is so tired and hurt. I want, nothing more, than for my ex-boyfriend and I to try again. Yes, it is true that what God gives, no one can take away. I'm praying, so much, that God allows my ex and I to reunite. But before that, I hope my ex meets Christ first. I pray that the Holy Spirit will guide my ex; away from temptation and bad-doers, to gently yet intentionally stop my ex from his vices, to bring him closer to God.
I hope so much that my ex and I are meant for each other. Not just as a lesson in pursuit of Christ, but as the couple God intends for us to be. I have asked God to provide for me the love for this man. I pray constantly for my ex, not just for us to be together, but for Christ Jesus to be in his heart, mind and soul.
I also pray that God removes my unforgiveness, bitterness, rage, and anger. The betrayal I felt, the pain that I had undergone.
I pray that my ex is the first on in his family to encounter God, to be filled with the Holy Spirit, so he may lead his family into the plans God has for them.
I have never felt this way; that I pray for someone to encounter God as much as I do for my ex. I miss him, so much. Perhaps God separated us for the time being so that I may be wholly dependent and reliant on God. And that the Holy Spirit will fill the crevices of my ex's heart with wisdom, love, knowledge of the lord, understanding and so much more.
I pray my ex encounters God. And if it is in God's will, I pray that my ex and I will be restored and reunited; that our love for each other will grow because God is the source of love. That we be redeemed and have a God-honoring relationship.
I used to pray for a lot of things, and now I pray that Jesus Christ encounters my ex. And if it is in God's will, I pray that I am part of that plans. Not just as a memory, or a friend, or an enemy, or a thing of the past. I hope I could be part of Christ's plans for my ex as his, hopefully, wife. I pray that my ex realizes how God has been so good to him, how God has something so perfect for him.
My heart is so tired and hurt. I want, nothing more, than for my ex-boyfriend and I to try again. Yes, it is true that what God gives, no one can take away. I'm praying, so much, that God allows my ex and I to reunite. But before that, I hope my ex meets Christ first. I pray that the Holy Spirit will guide my ex; away from temptation and bad-doers, to gently yet intentionally stop my ex from his vices, to bring him closer to God.
I hope so much that my ex and I are meant for each other. Not just as a lesson in pursuit of Christ, but as the couple God intends for us to be. I have asked God to provide for me the love for this man. I pray constantly for my ex, not just for us to be together, but for Christ Jesus to be in his heart, mind and soul.
I also pray that God removes my unforgiveness, bitterness, rage, and anger. The betrayal I felt, the pain that I had undergone.
I pray that my ex is the first on in his family to encounter God, to be filled with the Holy Spirit, so he may lead his family into the plans God has for them.
I have never felt this way; that I pray for someone to encounter God as much as I do for my ex. I miss him, so much. Perhaps God separated us for the time being so that I may be wholly dependent and reliant on God. And that the Holy Spirit will fill the crevices of my ex's heart with wisdom, love, knowledge of the lord, understanding and so much more.
I pray my ex encounters God. And if it is in God's will, I pray that my ex and I will be restored and reunited; that our love for each other will grow because God is the source of love. That we be redeemed and have a God-honoring relationship.