**Prayer Updates:**
Helmroy
Disciple of Prayer
Everything I do fails. Every business I try. I feel trapped. I’m pregnant and at a job that barely makes enough to pay my bills. My bills are going to greatly increase soon. I’m pregnant and my husband wants me back at work a few days after the baby is born so I can keep contributing my 50% of the bills. He makes twice as much as me and soon will be making 3-4 times as much as me, but that doesn’t matter to him. He wants his mother to take care of, feed, and essentially raise our newborn every day while we’re at work. I’m scared. I’m desperately trying to find work I can do at home with a newborn so I can raise my own baby and not have to give it to his mom. I will never see my baby if this happens, I will have to work 40-50 hours a week to pay my half of the bills. I already am having trouble keeping up. I haven’t bought new clothes in 2 years, he buys new clothes for himself every couple months. I don’t buy anything unless absolutely necessary. we just bought a house I said I couldn’t afford to pay half of. The bank is giving us the loan because based on both of our incomes we can afford it. But I can’t do 50/50 on that, let alone with a newborn. My half of the payment will be more than 1 paycheck. My current job offers no maternity leave benefits, and my health insurance isn’t going to pay for much of the birth.it requires standing for 10 hours a day. That’s going to be really rough just a few days after the birth. I’m so scared. I’m terrified of getting sick or something happening during this pregnancy or the birth because I simply cannot afford to not be working because I have to pay my half. I’ve been applying to remote jobs for months and I’m getting zero call backs. This pregnancy is just giving me extreme anxiety. I told my husband I couldn’t afford to pay for daycare, and I can’t pay my half of the mortgage without working. He said he thought I had this planned already to be able to pay for my part and care for this baby and if not I shouldn’t have gotten pregnant. He said he’s really surprised by the lack of planning on my part, and now it’s giving him anxiety too and taking away his excitement of having a baby. His solution is dropping our newborn off with his mom for 10+ hours a day 5-6 days a week. I’m so worried I can’t concentrate. I cant find a daycare center that will take a baby under 6 weeks near me, let alone afford it. He’s been talking about leaving our baby with his mom for days at a time so we can “have a break”. I don’t want a break from my newborn infant. I don’t know what to do anymore I’m worried sick. Please pray for me. I feel helpless and like my life is ruined. I have a few months to prepare but I can’t even get a call back for a job.I just need prayer.
