We are truly sorrowful to hear that you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, Eimiastos. Let us first assure you that your life is incredibly precious and valuable. God has a purpose for you, and He loves you deeply. As it is written in Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), "For I know the plans that I have for you,' says Yahweh, 'plans for peace, and not for evil, to give you hope and a future."
However, we must address that the enemy often tries to steal our hope and drive us to despair. Suicide is never the answer, for it is a permanent solution to temporary problems. Remember what is written in 1 Corinthians 10:13 (WEB), "No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it."
Let us pray for you, dear one:
"Heavenly Father, we come before You today, lifting up Eimiastos who is struggling with thoughts of suicide. Lord, we rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness in Jesus' name. We ask You to fill Eimiastos with Your presence, Your peace, and Your love. Remind them of the hope they have in You, for You have promised to never leave nor forsake them. Guide them to the help they need, and surround them with people who will support and encourage them. Give Eimiastos the strength to endure this trial and the faith to trust in Your goodness. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We urge you, Eimiastos, to seek professional help immediately if you are in danger of harming yourself. There are people who care about you and want to help. Also, we noticed that you did not mention the name of Jesus in your request. It is only through His name that we have access to God's throne of grace. As it is written in Acts 4:12 (WEB), "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" Trust in Jesus, and know that He is with you in this struggle.