HBPastorToBe
Servant of All
Dreams
Ever since 2007 I've been following a dream of making music. I'm not in it for fortune and fame. I feel its my God given talent to write music. No matter how I try to neglect this passion it comes back to me. Especially when I go through a major change in my life. I really need direction. If this is what God wants me to do. I pray that God places me where I need to be to accomplish this. Music makes so much sense to me. When writing Im taken to another place. I've had job after job. They all lead to nothing. Right when I feel I'm about to take off in a career. Something happens. I'm so tired of bouncing from job to job. The thing is, each stage of my life thus far opens up a new part of me in regards to music. I get better. More confident. I can really feel the music. This may seem as a strange prayer. But to me its a passion I can't escape. Please pray for. My desire is to take care of my family and enjoy myself doing so. I've been so selfish in the past. I only was concerned about me. Pride let to many falls. But I understand serving God is not just about me. Its about all of us and his kingdom. My marriage failed. My kids went years without me being around. But God is good. He placed my kids back in my life full time. My marriage is still broken. But its crazy how my ex-wife and I are on the same page. But yet still apart. I don't know if God wants me to reconciled to her or not. A part of me thinks yes. But a part of me is getting impatient. We've been seperated for 5 years. We both tried relationships that did not work. But I know together we could make a great team again. All in all. I desire Gods will to done in my life. Not my own. Whatever God decides is what I want. I think my ex and I both are fighting against this when deep down I believe we both know what we should do. But there is a catch. She's really into Wicca and I'm fully engulfed the Bible and Gods word. This is mainly what seperated us. But it's weird she believes in Jesus and all he done for us. But this belief has been years in the making. I read up on marriage inside the bible. I don't believe remarrying is an option. Single or reconcilation is all I see. I'm torn on this, but the truth is written. I know what the word says. I read many prayers on here and I see many are going through marital difficulties. I say fight until you can't anymore in order to save your marriage. But I've been fighting so long, and I'm spiritually tired. I've placed this in God's hands and I know father knows best. Please pray with me in regards to all I've written. I really need help from fellow believers.
Ever since 2007 I've been following a dream of making music. I'm not in it for fortune and fame. I feel its my God given talent to write music. No matter how I try to neglect this passion it comes back to me. Especially when I go through a major change in my life. I really need direction. If this is what God wants me to do. I pray that God places me where I need to be to accomplish this. Music makes so much sense to me. When writing Im taken to another place. I've had job after job. They all lead to nothing. Right when I feel I'm about to take off in a career. Something happens. I'm so tired of bouncing from job to job. The thing is, each stage of my life thus far opens up a new part of me in regards to music. I get better. More confident. I can really feel the music. This may seem as a strange prayer. But to me its a passion I can't escape. Please pray for. My desire is to take care of my family and enjoy myself doing so. I've been so selfish in the past. I only was concerned about me. Pride let to many falls. But I understand serving God is not just about me. Its about all of us and his kingdom. My marriage failed. My kids went years without me being around. But God is good. He placed my kids back in my life full time. My marriage is still broken. But its crazy how my ex-wife and I are on the same page. But yet still apart. I don't know if God wants me to reconciled to her or not. A part of me thinks yes. But a part of me is getting impatient. We've been seperated for 5 years. We both tried relationships that did not work. But I know together we could make a great team again. All in all. I desire Gods will to done in my life. Not my own. Whatever God decides is what I want. I think my ex and I both are fighting against this when deep down I believe we both know what we should do. But there is a catch. She's really into Wicca and I'm fully engulfed the Bible and Gods word. This is mainly what seperated us. But it's weird she believes in Jesus and all he done for us. But this belief has been years in the making. I read up on marriage inside the bible. I don't believe remarrying is an option. Single or reconcilation is all I see. I'm torn on this, but the truth is written. I know what the word says. I read many prayers on here and I see many are going through marital difficulties. I say fight until you can't anymore in order to save your marriage. But I've been fighting so long, and I'm spiritually tired. I've placed this in God's hands and I know father knows best. Please pray with me in regards to all I've written. I really need help from fellow believers.
