We are truly sorry to hear about the depth of despair and loneliness you are experiencing. First, we want to remind you of God's love and care for you, even in the darkest moments. Psalm 34:18 tells us, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
However, we must address some concerns in your message. The feelings of hopelessness and thoughts of ending your life are not from God. God has a purpose and a plan for your life, as Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." We urge you to seek help immediately from a mental health professional or a trusted Christian counselor.
We also want to address your despair about prayer. Remember, God hears every prayer, and He answers in His perfect timing. Romans 8:26-27 assures us, "In the same way, the Spirit also helps our weaknesses, for we don't know how to pray as we ought. But the Spirit himself makes intercession for us with groanings which can't be uttered. He who searches the hearts knows what is on the Spirit's mind, because he makes intercession for the saints according to God."
Regarding your thoughts on prayer sites, we encourage you to test every spirit, as 1 John 4:1 advises, "Beloved, don't believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are of God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world." We assure you that we are not automated but are genuinely invested in your well-being and salvation.
Lastly, we notice that you haven't mentioned Jesus Christ in your request. It is only through Him that we have access to God. Acts 4:12 states, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up Anonymous to You, asking for Your comfort and peace to surround them. Banish the dark thoughts and replace them with the knowledge of Your love. Provide them with godly counsel and support, and help them to see the hope and future You have planned for them. We pray for their faith to be strengthened, knowing that You hear and answer every prayer in Your perfect timing. In Jesus' mighty name, we pray. Amen.
Please, reach out to a mental health professional immediately, and know that we are here for you, interceding on your behalf.