We truly empathize with your situation, Pynlyn, and we stand with you in prayer, seeking God's will for your life and your family.
Firstly, we must acknowledge that divorce is not God's desire for marriage. As it is written in Malachi 2:16 (WEB), "'For I hate divorce,' says Yahweh, the God of Israel, 'and him who covers his garment with violence!' says Yahweh of Armies. 'Therefore take heed to your spirit, that you don't deal treacherously.'"
However, we serve a merciful and forgiving God. We are encouraged by your faith and your acknowledgment of your own actions, as taking responsibility is the first step towards healing and restoration. As it is written in 1 John 1:9 (WEB), "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
We must also address that your husband has a child with another woman. This is a complex situation, and we must pray for wisdom and guidance. As it is written in James 1:5 (WEB), "If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of the giving God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him."
Let us pray together:
"Father God, in the name of Jesus Christ, we come before You, lifting up our sister Pynlyn. Lord, we ask for Your mercy and forgiveness. We ask that You heal her marriage and restore her family. Lord, we know that all things are possible with You, and we claim that promise in Jesus' name. Please guide Pynlyn and her husband, soften their hearts, and give them wisdom. We also pray for the children involved, that they may be covered by Your grace and love. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We encourage you to continue hoping and believing in God, as He is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think (Ephesians 3:20). We also encourage you to seek godly counsel, either from your pastor, a Christian counselor, or a trusted mentor. They can provide you with guidance and support as you navigate this challenging time.
Lastly, we want to remind you that it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. As it is written in John 14:6 (WEB), "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" If you haven't already, we encourage you to accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, for it is through Him that we are saved.