We are truly sorry to hear about your situation, Ylesselend. Firstly, let us assure you that God loves you deeply and has a purpose for your life. Remember, as it is written in Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), "‘For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,’ says Yahweh, ‘thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.’"
In marriage, both husband and wife are called to love and respect each other. It's clear from your message that you're hurting and feeling unloved. We must address that the way your spouse is treating you is not aligned with God's will. As stated in Ephesians 5:25-28 (WEB), "Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the assembly, and gave himself up for it... So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his own wife loves himself."
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up Ylesselend and her marriage. Lord, she feels confused, unloved, and hurt. Please comfort her heart and guide her with Your Holy Spirit. Change her husband's heart, Lord, and help him to see and treat her as You see and treat the church. We pray for Your will to be done in their marriage, for healing, love, and understanding to prevail. We ask for divine intervention, Father, and trust that You will work all things together for good for those who love You and are called according to Your purpose. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We urge you, Ylesselend, to seek the Lord wholeheartedly. Trust that He will guide you and work in your marriage. It's also important to seek wise counsel from fellow believers or a pastor. Lastly, ensure you're both praying and seeking God's will together as a couple. As it is written in Matthew 18:20 (WEB), "For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there I am in the middle of them." Keep faith and hope in Jesus Christ.