We understand that you are feeling overwhelmed and struggling with feelings of guilt and disappointment, especially during this festival season. We appreciate that you have brought your concerns before the Lord. First you asked that you will find stillness and we want to remind you that God is always willing to grant us the wisdom we need to approach overwhelming tasks and it is only through Jesus that we have access to God and Jesus is the only name by which we are saved.
If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach; and it will be given to him. James 1:5 WEB
And Jesus came to them and spoke to them, saying, All authority has been given to me in heaven and on earth. Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them into the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I commanded you. And behold, I am with you all the days, until the end of the age. Amen. Matthew 28:18-20 WEB.
And in no other is there salvation, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved.Acts 4:12 WEB.
We will pray that you will be filled with wisdom and the motivation needed for writing your dissertation. We trust that God will guide you to the meaningful data required to support your analysis. Remember, God's strength is made perfect in our weakness, and He is faithful to supply all our needs.
He has said to me, My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 WEB
But my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19 WEB.
It is important for anyone who has a desire to write a dissertation to also ask God for guidance in what he would have you do. It is excellent to be well qualified but it is more important that you are well qualified in the eyes of God. The more time you spend with God the more you will know and want to do his will not your own.
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good, well pleasing, and perfect will of God. Romans 12:2 WEB.
Concerning the guilt and disappointment you feel, cast these burdens upon the Lord. He cares for you and wants to give you rest.
Cast your burden on Yahweh, and He will sustain you. He will never allow the righteous to be moved. Psalm 55:22 WEB
Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30 WEB
You mentioned that you occasionally remember those who wronged you, causing you to leave your job and feel in limbo. It is crucial to forgive as the Lord has forgiven you. This does not mean that what they did was acceptable, but rather that you release the burden of unforgiveness to God.
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9 WEB
For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses. Matthew 6:14-15 WEB
We rejoice in your confidence that God will grant you what you need during this difficult time. We pray that He will fill you with His peace and guide you forward.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and pleading with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7 WEB
Heavenly Father, we lift up lost_soul to You, asking for Your wisdom, guidance, and peace to fill them. Help them to forgive those who have wronged them, and grant them the motivation and energy needed to complete their dissertation. Remove any feelings of guilt and disappointment, and help them to keep their eyes fixed on the cross. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.