I am so discouraged over my life. I am so unhappy. I dislike my life so much. I have been waiting on God to send me a good husband and nothing happen I have been posting regarding this for over 20 years now on several platforms and also on prayer lines on the phone. I am sad to say that my young days are over and that I don't have the youth look i used to have and with time it will not get any better as I am aging this is a reality. I am now 40 years unmarried with no children and I don't see any good man out here to marry. The men my age younger and even older all want to have sex and do casual dating none want to have long term relationship and marriage. My mother is talking bad about me saying that I have made no efforts for 20 years but it's untrue. I attended several churches locally and even in other states I went to events, social gatherings I tried several dating sites and apps still now I am trying online dating again and it's a disaster. I feel God don't value me and don't value all the time I have been celibate and preserving my body from sinning like what the world is doing. What a sad life my life is. I don't know what else to say anymore.