Kittybuggy
Disciple of Prayer
Feb 2 2023
Good news and bad news. I got unban from Rome's server but bad news because I got banned from three RP hubs including RP Hub | Server Advertising, Crescent Hub, and The Simple Roleplay Hub plus a blacklist on RPH Advertising and three more bans from yourfriendsteven's servers. Just because I accidentally misclick my age role and so Death overreacted banning me from all three hubs and yourfriendsteven ban me from all his servers as well. I really wish there was a way to get through to his heart and open it up to see what I did wasn't on purpose but by accident. Everything I've done to get banned or blocked was always misunderstand never intended to hurt others. Miss Divvi? I didn't know about the announcement and I never said I was replacing. RPH Server Advertising? I never scammed them. I didn't notice the name change on the channel until it was too late. I actually had their server ad posted. I just didn't notice the name change because my co owner didn't tell me. Rome? I did not mean to harass him. I made a mistake sending him a message instead of my friend. Ever Rat and Thea? No clue why I was banned from their servers or blocked by Ever Rat. Back to the three hubs and yourfriendsteven servers.. Misclick the age role and did a terrible job talking to Death and appealing the ban twice on accident on my alt account.
Now I'm just feeling miserable about everything that happened and all I want is to get a second chance with each of them saying "Hey look, I'm sorry for all the troubles I've caused and if I'm being honest I never meant to cause any of these troubles with you or to make you think I'm a bad person. In reality I'm just a nobody who always seems to be messed up and making mistakes being misunderstood by everyone I come across.
I'm never good with words and I always hesitate messing everything up in the end. Oh dear God, I'm venting to You because not only am I'm feeling a empty hole in my heart but I'm also feeling miserable like nothing is ever okay again. Only thing I can do is that I pray that for these problems to be solved so that everyone who I've been misunderstood will forgive me and give me the second chance I deserve. I want that second chance so badly to happen and it would be a miracle if it did but of course who knows when that'll happen? It probably will or probably won't. Only God knows when it'll happen or won't happen. But like I said, if it did happen, it would be a wonderful miracle making my day.
Feb 26
I wish.. I really wish to go back to July 14 of 2023 because nothing in life makes sense anymore. All I get are always bad luck and painful misery from being banned and misunderstood to being blocked and accused of something I didn't do to being called a "stalker" because I wanted to apologize.. I got my discord deleted and app Store taken away. Why did God stop answering me? Did I do anything wrong to disobey Him? I need answers. I mean God has always and I mean ALWAYS been answering my prayers from being able to be unban from a few discord servers and friends to healing my family and friends. But now here it comes ones again.. being accused, ban because of misunderstandings, blocked because of misunderstandings.. I just feel like I'm no use to anyone.. I recall what I wrote from the very first time I gotten banned.. "I wish I could go back to the very first time I joined the server(and now servers) and used my brain once. Perhaps things would be different but instead, I just had to open my big mouth and make a stupid, terrible mistake that I could never forgive myself for." My heartache is still here no matter how hard I try to breathe and forget it, it's still there. I'm just so lost and I don't know what to do..
If I could, Heavenly Father, please allow me to go back in time just one time back to either August 8th or July 14 2023 and just let me relive these precious moments of where I didn't mess up and be given a second chance to do over everything. However You helped me with Canadian to see the truth and having the heart to give me a second chance, please do the same thing with Happy, Death, yourfriendsteven, Mane, Ever Rat, Miss Divvi, Thea and Rome giving them the heart to talk to me first. I really need something to help me believe in miracles again. Something so amazing that'll trigger these people to unban me and let me be taken off blacklist from their discord servers, unblock me from their DMs, and understand the truth through the name of Jesus Christ. I wish they knew how they made me feel...Heartbroken and hopeless with a shatter heart broken into a million pieces...I wish they knew the truth and give me a second chance. I don't care what they think, I just want them to think that with God, nothing is impossible. Jesus did many amazing lifetime miracles from healing the blind to bring people from the dead so He can definitely put faithful truth seeking and kindness in these haters hearts and eyes. I pray for it, Lord. It would mean so much to help me believe again.
Thread 'Discord Wishes'
https://www.prayerrequest.com/threads/discord-wishes.4914817/
Thread 'Prayer for a miracle(Tags like Death, happy, Mane, etc are people I'm talking about)'
https://www.prayerrequest.com/threa...mane-etc-are-people-im-talking-about.4915556/
Good news and bad news. I got unban from Rome's server but bad news because I got banned from three RP hubs including RP Hub | Server Advertising, Crescent Hub, and The Simple Roleplay Hub plus a blacklist on RPH Advertising and three more bans from yourfriendsteven's servers. Just because I accidentally misclick my age role and so Death overreacted banning me from all three hubs and yourfriendsteven ban me from all his servers as well. I really wish there was a way to get through to his heart and open it up to see what I did wasn't on purpose but by accident. Everything I've done to get banned or blocked was always misunderstand never intended to hurt others. Miss Divvi? I didn't know about the announcement and I never said I was replacing. RPH Server Advertising? I never scammed them. I didn't notice the name change on the channel until it was too late. I actually had their server ad posted. I just didn't notice the name change because my co owner didn't tell me. Rome? I did not mean to harass him. I made a mistake sending him a message instead of my friend. Ever Rat and Thea? No clue why I was banned from their servers or blocked by Ever Rat. Back to the three hubs and yourfriendsteven servers.. Misclick the age role and did a terrible job talking to Death and appealing the ban twice on accident on my alt account.
Now I'm just feeling miserable about everything that happened and all I want is to get a second chance with each of them saying "Hey look, I'm sorry for all the troubles I've caused and if I'm being honest I never meant to cause any of these troubles with you or to make you think I'm a bad person. In reality I'm just a nobody who always seems to be messed up and making mistakes being misunderstood by everyone I come across.
I'm never good with words and I always hesitate messing everything up in the end. Oh dear God, I'm venting to You because not only am I'm feeling a empty hole in my heart but I'm also feeling miserable like nothing is ever okay again. Only thing I can do is that I pray that for these problems to be solved so that everyone who I've been misunderstood will forgive me and give me the second chance I deserve. I want that second chance so badly to happen and it would be a miracle if it did but of course who knows when that'll happen? It probably will or probably won't. Only God knows when it'll happen or won't happen. But like I said, if it did happen, it would be a wonderful miracle making my day.
Feb 26
I wish.. I really wish to go back to July 14 of 2023 because nothing in life makes sense anymore. All I get are always bad luck and painful misery from being banned and misunderstood to being blocked and accused of something I didn't do to being called a "stalker" because I wanted to apologize.. I got my discord deleted and app Store taken away. Why did God stop answering me? Did I do anything wrong to disobey Him? I need answers. I mean God has always and I mean ALWAYS been answering my prayers from being able to be unban from a few discord servers and friends to healing my family and friends. But now here it comes ones again.. being accused, ban because of misunderstandings, blocked because of misunderstandings.. I just feel like I'm no use to anyone.. I recall what I wrote from the very first time I gotten banned.. "I wish I could go back to the very first time I joined the server(and now servers) and used my brain once. Perhaps things would be different but instead, I just had to open my big mouth and make a stupid, terrible mistake that I could never forgive myself for." My heartache is still here no matter how hard I try to breathe and forget it, it's still there. I'm just so lost and I don't know what to do..
If I could, Heavenly Father, please allow me to go back in time just one time back to either August 8th or July 14 2023 and just let me relive these precious moments of where I didn't mess up and be given a second chance to do over everything. However You helped me with Canadian to see the truth and having the heart to give me a second chance, please do the same thing with Happy, Death, yourfriendsteven, Mane, Ever Rat, Miss Divvi, Thea and Rome giving them the heart to talk to me first. I really need something to help me believe in miracles again. Something so amazing that'll trigger these people to unban me and let me be taken off blacklist from their discord servers, unblock me from their DMs, and understand the truth through the name of Jesus Christ. I wish they knew how they made me feel...Heartbroken and hopeless with a shatter heart broken into a million pieces...I wish they knew the truth and give me a second chance. I don't care what they think, I just want them to think that with God, nothing is impossible. Jesus did many amazing lifetime miracles from healing the blind to bring people from the dead so He can definitely put faithful truth seeking and kindness in these haters hearts and eyes. I pray for it, Lord. It would mean so much to help me believe again.
Thread 'Discord Wishes'
https://www.prayerrequest.com/threads/discord-wishes.4914817/
Thread 'Prayer for a miracle(Tags like Death, happy, Mane, etc are people I'm talking about)'
https://www.prayerrequest.com/threa...mane-etc-are-people-im-talking-about.4915556/
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