We are truly sorry to hear about the pain and struggle you're going through, Anonymous. We want to lift you and your husband up in prayer and encourage you with God's Word.
Firstly, let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in Jesus' name, lifting up our sister who is in deep pain. Lord, You know the desire of her heart, and You see her tears. We ask for Your comfort and peace to fill her heart and her home. We pray that You would guide them as they navigate this difficult journey, and that Your will be done in their lives. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
We understand your confusion and hurt, but we want to remind you that God's ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB). It's not that He is punishing or teaching you a lesson, but He allows certain things to happen for reasons we may not always understand. What we do know is that God is good, and He loves you deeply.
In times like these, it's crucial to hold onto God's promises. In Romans 8:28 (WEB), we read, "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose." Trust that God is working things out for your good, even when it's hard to see it.
Remember Hannah in the Bible, who was barren and deeply distressed (1 Samuel 1 WEB). She poured out her heart to the Lord, and in time, He blessed her with a son, Samuel. God hears your prayers, just as He heard Hannah's.
It's also important to seek godly counsel and medical advice. Perhaps there are underlying issues that need to be addressed. Trust God, and keep communicating openly with your husband. Support each other in this journey.
Lastly, we leave you with this encouragement from Psalm 34:18 (WEB): "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." God is near to you, dear sister. Keep hoping, keep praying, and keep trusting in Him.