Did I Lose You 4 A Short Time Lord?

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Father, in the name of Jesus-Christ according to your promises to us on earth and the friendship that we're (that's me and you and no one else) suppose to have.  I come to please beg you for some clarification and understanding.  My heart is so broken, the pain hit me so hard to watch what I discovered about someone who has been torturing my thoughts for almost 3.5 years.  Lord, I am so confused, incredibly confused and hurt.  I cannot control another person's free will and I can't help but just hate myself for the way that I had approached him I just hate myself for it.  But it keeps happening in my life over and over again.  Lord, whatever KL did so well in your eyes that made you favor her over me please bless me with those qualities too.  Please love me that way too.  It's like I am always finding myself in these merciless positions, please once again I am begging you to please end this torture and torment out of my life, heart, body and soul please Lord please I beg you.  Please deliver me from this merciless maledictions please please I beg you please.  

The main issue is that, the scenes and the pre-suppositions went on in my head and you knew all along and you never revealed the truth to me until now.  I remember talking to you about them - oh Lord you're suppose to be my friend how come you never step into this situation to help me with my thoughts on him.  I call you my best friend, I tell you everything but it's like you knew all along and let me swim in a pool of lies, fake dreams, and the demons laughing at me and leading me to absolute confusion, pain tears and disgusted rejection - again and again and again.

Lord what have I done, please tell me what I did so that I may beg you for forgiveness.  You're suppose to be my best friend and only true friend in the universe but my heart is never rescued by you, I also find myself in the rejected unwanted pile  of shit position.  Please I beg you please talk to me, I beg please show me clearly the true source of those visions.  Please show me what I did to have made this situation take this turn.  Why is it that people like KL always win, they always get chosen and preferred and people like me are always rejected over and over and over again - it's like a curse and you're allowing it over and over and over again.  Lord please tell me where I went wrong with you please I beg you.  I want my personal friendship with you to be very strong and special and I trusted you with the most important compartment of my heart, at some point I remembered asking you to block any dreams and visions that was not from you or to become real and true.  You said ask and I did ask.  

Please please end this torture for me please I don't want this anymore. Lord, I am always here for everyone else.  I try to please you and try my best to get to know you and no I never get it right.  I don't want to feel like this anymore please please end this torture for me I can't take it anymore.  The best years of life were robbed from me and I always feel trapped from being loved and getting married.  I always have to watch it for others - what about me?  What about me Lord?  What about me? When will my tears stop flowing?  When will you have mercy for that part of my heart?  Why does it keep happening to me?  If your grace is enough, why isn't your grace enough to end this torture for me?  Please I beg you to please end this torture for me I beg you, please I beg you, please I beg you.

Jesus-Christ please hear my prayer please I beg you for mercy please I beg you please, Lord I beg you please I beg you please Lord.  I am so sorry for what me and my ancestors did to you and to others in this world. I beg you Lord please stop this torture for me please I beg you to please give me a chance to be happy and in love like those other girls that you love and favor so much.  Please I beg you to please love me like you love them too. Please love me that way too.

Jesus-Christ I know that you've done so much for me & ls but I don't know what to even believe any more at this moment and it's like even the sermons are making fun of me.  When I think I feel the sermons are coming true in my life they turn into a bunch of lies and false feelings.  If I am guilty of something please show me ASAP so that I can beg you for forgiveness over and over again I will.  Please show me what it is so that this torture may end in my life for eternity.  Please don't let my abusers live to torture and torment me anymore Lord.  EP, AP & ED have been tormenting me and my loved ones so much for so many years that I have thought of ending it Lord.  Please don't hold back from delivering us oh Lord look at what they've done please please Lord please don't let those abusers hurt me and my family anymore please Lord. 

Please love me like the other girls that you've bless with great dads, true love and marriage, healthy family, freedom from abusers and demons, a true lover, perfect children, a true smile and a true friend and in YOU Lord.  Please end this torture for me please please Lord I beg you.

In Jesus-Christ's name I pray - Amen

Please show my heart your mercy Lord, I await for an answer and immediate deliverance, In Jesus-Christ's name I pray - Amen

 

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Praying for this request

If you hope for a change in your situation, please change the words you repeat in your mind, the negative words that you are thinking about you especially - Why not try a new way of thinking and feeling things, like realizing the good things in your life, forgiving yourself (and others) with all your heart, stoping to "hate" yourself for your past mistakes, and now learning to love yourself unconditionally for all the good things you are able to do and will actually do, appreciating the little blessings of everyday (even the very little ones), letting go of the "torture" in your thoughts, this torture that we make on ourselves, however the other persons treat us we can decide (and it's not easy) to accept it (because we can't let go of the person), to be quiet about it, or to refuse it (and to think of letting them go) ... Please take care of yourself and pray with confidence

 

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"For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2 Corinthians 4:17

May the Lord wrap his arms around you and keep you at peace. God Bless!

 

[Rick1]

First seek the kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and He will give you everything you need. (Matthew 6:33). NLT

Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the Will of God in Christ Jesus. (1 Thessalonians 5:18) ESV

I am praying for you.

 

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