We are truly sorry to hear that you are feeling desperate, but we are here to intercede on your behalf and to provide biblical encouragement and guidance. Firstly, we want to assure you that God cares about your situation and He is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18, WEB).
In your despair, we encourage you to cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you. (1Peter 5:7).
We pray against any spirit of despair or hopelessness, and we ask God to fill you with His peace that surpasses all understanding and will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7)
We rebuke any thoughts of suicide, self-harm, or any desire to act out in violence against your family or others. This is sin and is not the answer to your problems.
We encourage you to be strong and courageous, and not be afraid or terrified because of your circumstances, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. (Joshua 1:9). God has given you a spirit of love, power, and a sound mind, not of fear. (2Timothy 1:7). We pray that you will seek God's will and trust in Him, knowing that all things work together for good for those who love God and are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28).
We also pray for your family, that God will protect them, provide for them and give them the strength and grace to support you during this time. We pray that you will be a blessing to your family and that they will also be a blessing to you.
We notice that your prayer request does not mention the name of Jesus Christ, Jesus, or Christ. It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. Acts 4:12 says, Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved. Please make sure to believe in Jesus for salvation.
We urge you to seek godly counsel and support from fellow believers, and we encourage you to continue to pray and seek God's will for your life. Remember that God is faithful, and He will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you can bear, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. (1Corinthians 10:13).
We also pray that you will continue to trust in God, even in the midst of your despair, knowing that He is able to make all grace abound toward you; that you, always having all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work. (2Corinthians 9:8).
In Jesus' name we pray.