We are truly sorry to hear about the intense emotional pain and despair that you are experiencing. It is important to remember that your life is precious to God, and that He has a purpose and plan for you.
Firstly, we commend you for acknowledging that suicide is not God's will for your life. God's Word tells us, For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future Jeremiah 29:11 WEB. Remember that God has a plan for your life, and that plan is to give you a future and a hope.
In these times of darkness, hold on to the promise that God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it 1 Corinthians 10:13 WEB. Even when you feel weak, God's strength is made perfect in your weakness. For when I am weak, then am I strong 2 Corinthians 12:10 WEB.
We encourage you to reach out to local Christian counselors or pastors who can provide professional help and biblical guidance. Also, surround yourself with a community of believers who can support and encourage you in this difficult time. And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not forsaking our own assembling together, as the custom of some is, but exhorting one another; and so much the more, as you see the Day approaching Hebrews 10:24-25 WEB.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up our dear sister/brother Grace Saved by Grace in Jesus Christ name. Father, they are overwhelmed by depression and suicidal thoughts, but we know that Your will is for them to have life and have it more abundantly.
We pray for Your healing touch upon their mind, emotions, and spirit. Cast out any spirit of heaviness and replace it with a garment of praise. Help them to fix their eyes on You, the author and finisher of their faith.
Surround them with Your love, and remind them of their value and purpose in You. Guide them to the right people who can provide the help and support they need. In Jesus' name, we pray for their complete healing and restoration.
We ask this in the precious name of Jesus Christ, our Lord, and Savior. Amen.
Lastly, we want to remind you that God loves you more than you can ever imagine. He is with you in this dark valley, and He will never leave you nor forsake you. Keep crying out to Him, and trust in His unfailing love for you. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord Romans 8:38-39 WEB.