Brittany Whitehurst
Disciple of Prayer
For the last almost 4 years my life has been a mess. I pray I have asked God for forgiveness for my sins. I’m to the point I don’t want to live anymore but I know killing myself is a sin and that’s the only thing that is stopping me. I’m behind in my bills and I’m doing whatever I can to work it out I need a miracle to happen today. I’m so broken inside and I pray and ask god to help me and nothing. All I hear is ask and you will receive at first I only thanked god for the things I do have because it’s people out here with worse situations then me and I realized that I deserve pray for myself it just hurts to feel like nothing I pray for is gods will. The more days go on it’s like is god even real if he is how could he let his child hurt so bad. I lost my dad 4 years ago and it was one of the worse feelings of my life it’s like now I’m so alone in the world. I started talking to someone 3 years ago and I just knew he was god sent in the beginning then little by little things started to change he started assuming that I was talking to other ppl when I only wanted him and still do. I’m a good woman and I give my all to anybody i pray for people I don’t even know. I need God to help me to guide me in the right direction to answer my prays. I need my brokenness to be healed my finances to get better. And for god to show this man that I truly only want him. I need a miracle to happen today. I need to cry tears of joy for once in my life.