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LoganTH
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The title is pretty self-explanatory. I'm not really sure what to do with myself anymore. I'm 24 years old with little to nothing to show for it. I have no career, the people around me don't take me seriously and walk all over me, and I'm so socially inept that I can't make any meaningful relationships. I'm tired of trying and trying and trying to crawl out of this black hole of despair only to find myself falling back in it again.
I keep thinking, "maybe I haven't suffered enough yet" and it horrifies me to think that I have to endure more of this. I can easily tell myself that it's part of God's plan, but am I really supposed to be taking joy in that? Intellectually, I can say yes. But I don't want suffering anymore. I've suffered from more than a decade. I'd like to be done now. There's a reason why pain isn't pleasurable. It's because it hurts.
But God knows best, right?
I keep thinking, "maybe I haven't suffered enough yet" and it horrifies me to think that I have to endure more of this. I can easily tell myself that it's part of God's plan, but am I really supposed to be taking joy in that? Intellectually, I can say yes. But I don't want suffering anymore. I've suffered from more than a decade. I'd like to be done now. There's a reason why pain isn't pleasurable. It's because it hurts.
But God knows best, right?