Soul searching
Disciple of Prayer
Deeply lost in a blackhole and suffering from sadness from ###. I don't know if they call it depression nowadays. I used to love my job in sales but I overworked myself and my boss used to taunt me because I did not gloat over him like a god like other female employees. In the same time period I screwed up my love life because I was so focused on work. Both these things sent me to hell. Before that I was blissfully unaware of anything called anxiety or depression. I used to be simply happy. Now after having ### years of work gap because I quit, I am running out of my savings. I don't socialize anymore, I am angry all the time, if not, I am reclusive and sad. My parents want to help me but I just won't or just can't vocalize my feelings. I see them being so sad for me that it breaks my heart, I want to get back on my feet again and work again but I just don't have the confidence. I am so lost and stuck. All roads seem to be closed. I don't know what to do. I used to love sales and now I hate or get scared interacting with people. I started blogging and writing poems. I even tried searching for freelancing work but then I simply lose all interest and go back to being in my blackhole and my soul seems tired indefinitely. I don't want to regret wasting my time anymore but I just don't know how and where to apply. Where to begin? Please pray for me.