Soul searching
Disciple of Prayer
Deeply lost in a blackhole and suffering from sadness from 2017. I dont know if they call it depression now a days. I used to love my job in sales but I overworked myself and my boss used to taunt me because I did not gloat over him like a god like other female employees. In the same time period I screwed up my love life coz I was so focused on work. Both these things sent me to hell. Before that I was blissfully unaware of anything called anxiety or depression. I used to be ssimply happy. Now after having 5 years of work gap coz I quit, I am running out of my savings. I dont socialize anymore, I am angry all the time, if not, I am reclusive and sad, My parents want to help me but I just wont or just cant vocalize my feelings. I see them being so sad for me that it breaks my heart, I want to get back on my feet again and work again but i just dont have the confidence. I am so lost and stuck. All roads seem to be closed. I dont know what to do. I used to love sales and now i hate or get scared interacting with people. I started blogginf and writing poems. I even tried searching for freelancing work but then I simply lose all insterest and go back to being in my blackhole and My soul seems tired indefinitely. I dont want tto regret wasting my time anymore but I just dont know how and where to apply. Where to begin? Please pray for me.