Vorsemulare
Disciple of Prayer
A few months ago I was stuck in my head thinking about the man that caused me to get fired on February. Telling me when I use to work with him that he will take me seriously. Then, waiting for him to text me on my days off and he put excuses that he didn’t like to text like the past men. Thinking that it was right to keep his phone number in my contacts when since the beginning I gained his phone number because he yelled at me during work hours then called me where I was. Still thought it was love when he didn’t ask me out on a date. Talked to other women thinking it was cool or normal for him. When inside of me I felt disgusted of the fact and wanted to disappear but then felt fearful that no man will love me. This man that broke my heart and soul is named Matthew Schwartz. I even had his Facebook pictures to ease my pain that he didn’t love me. I have to admit like a woman I still miss him without him being something significant because he was not my boyfriend and everyone thought he was. It was a situationship because he played mind games and wanted a one night stand. When I am not that type of woman like he is use too. I am disgusted and disappointed that there was no reconciliation. But, you know lord why, please lord heal me. Help me to move on. Not because I want to go out with other men but to learn to love myself. Yes, I am single and a home woman but I prefer to be clean then be in one bed to another like Matthew. Bring a man that will be by side no matter what and love me. Demonstrate me what is love. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen