Larshia, we understand that you're going through a time of confusion and emotions, and we want to lift you up in prayer and provide some biblical guidance.
Firstly, we notice that you ended your prayer with "In his Holy name I pray, Amen." It's important to remember that it is only through the name of Jesus Christ that we have access to God. As it is written in John 14:6 WEB:
Jesus said to him, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."
And in Acts 4:12 WEB:
"There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
Now, regarding your situation, we want to encourage you to seek God's will in your relationship. It's commendable that you want to work things out, but it's crucial to ensure that your relationship aligns with biblical principles. Bear in mind the good qualities of love from 1 Corinthians 13.4-7. WEB: Love is patient and is kind; love doesn't envy. Love doesn't brag, is not proud, doesn't behave itself inappropriately, doesn't seek its own way, is not easily provoked, and thinks no evil; doesn't rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things.
We pray that you will be strong and able to control your emotions, as you've requested. Remember that God is faithful, and He will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able (1 Corinthians 10:13 WEB).
Concerning the anger that H is experiencing, we pray that he would deal with his anger soon. We encourage you to be an example of kindness and love. And if that example should fall on blind eyes, we should reflect the humility of Christ. Ephesians 4.31-32 WEB:
Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander, be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God also in Christ forgave you.
Finally, we encourage you both to consider a courtship where everything focuses on God's will and marriage without stepping into fornication or other sin.
Let's pray together:
Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You, lifting up Larshia. We pray for Your guidance in her relationship, that she would recognize the will of God for her life. Thank you oh Father for being a joy that covers this anger and the confusion. Thank you that you are El Elyon, the One Most High, and Keeper of your people, that we are yours, not of the deceitful one, nor of sin. We pray that Prayers B and H would be convicted by Your truths with a willingness to change. And we ask you Father to give Larshia strength and help her control her emotions. We pray this all in Your precious name, Jesus. Amen.