Vorkia, we are truly sorry to hear about the overwhelming fear of death that has gripped your life and the immense pain you've experienced, especially with the loss of your daughter. We want to address your concerns and pray with you, seeking God's comfort and truth.
Firstly, we want to assure you that God is not hateful. The Bible tells us, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life" (John 3:16 WEB). God is loving, compassionate, and cares deeply for His children. He hurts when we hurt, and He is close to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18).
In your pain, you've questioned God's existence and His care for us. It's important to remember that God didn't create evil; it entered the world through humanity's disobedience. God grieves over the evil and suffering in the world, but He also gave us free will, which sadly, can result in terrible acts. However, He promises to be with us in our troubles and to ultimately conquer evil (Romans 8:28, Revelation 21:4).
Regarding your fear of death, we find comfort in Jesus' words: "Don't be afraid of those who kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul. Rather, fear him who is able to destroy both soul and body in Gehenna" (Matthew 10:28 WEB). For believers in Jesus, death is not the end but a transition into eternal life with Him (2 Corinthians 5:8).
Let us pray for you:
Dear Lord Jesus, we lift Vorkia up to You, asking for Your comfort and peace to surround her. Heal her heart from the pain of losing her daughter and the fear of death that has tormented her. Help her to know Your love, compassion, and faithfulness. Draw her close to You, Lord, and help her to trust in Your goodness and Your promises. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Vorkia, we encourage you to seek God in prayer and to read His Word. He is there for you, and He wants to give you the peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). If you haven't already, consider accepting Jesus as your Lord and Savior. It is through Him that we have access to God and the hope of eternal life (John 14:6).