Chauwen
Disciple of Prayer
Dear Pastor Benny Hinn i married from 1999 .. But from that year I having a lot of problems in my life I'm crying with a broken heart I have no peace of mind can't sleep properly in the nights.. Sometimes I'm awake the whole night I don't know what is happening. From 1999 I'm having lots of problems my husband use to take drugs ( injections) people use to make fun & tell me he will not change & he is of no use.. But with all that I got married to him & even after my marriage he continued to take drugs then I felt pregnant & got twins two girls 2001.. Then I was staying in his house but nothing was working out I was like a slave doing things myself & I got so thin & looked very bad so i found that he is not changing so i went away to my parents house for 8 years i stayed with my parents.. Then in Feb 2004 I lost my elder brother who I was so fond of till today I'm missing him..Then my husband came back & said sorry I felt pregnant after 2 months he left me again.. My son was born in Nov 2004 only after one month he came to see my son then we sorted out things got a house to stay after 2 months he started taking drugs again then his sister brought my house down.. I had to go back to my parents house then I had to find a job working all three shifts to get money for my kids. From day one I'm having a problem with his sisters & aunties they took him away from me..His sister use to take him for disco's, Parties, Clubs,Pubs etc.. He use to cheat me with girls too.. Then in 2008 he went on the rig's that's oil drilling.. So he came apologized to me then I asked him to get a house to move out separately but his sister did not want him to move out.. From 2008 till today we are together I have 2 kids more one boy born in 2011 & a girl born in 2016.. So I have 5 kids..I have 3 girls & 2 boys but from 2008 till now that's 2020 I'm having so much of problems just eant to end my life I'm doing my best don't even go out I was 21yrs when i got married now I'm closing 42 in Nov but till today i have no peace no happiness no love no respect for a women even my kids are having a tough tone with him he beats them up calling all of us bad words I'm so depressed till today is still interfering with us & wanting to take him for a holiday aboard but she does not eant to take us only her brother.. He does not listen to me only to his sister & aunties we love him so much but he is so rude with us .My husband asked us to get out of the house & he does not want us.. Now he is telling me he his leaving us I'm so depressed. We have no jobs financial down we are finding it so difficult.. Whenever his sister calls he have fights I don't know why even is hod aunties call we have fights.. If his sisters or aunties come home we have a problem.. Or uf they give us any food I have a problem in my house & my husband acts like a tiger..In a week I'm only happy for 2 days the rest of it he does not talk to me.. My husband is having high pressure & taking tablets & I'm having low pressure but I'm not taking any medication I'm having so much of pain in my body since of late not able to tell anyone I only go to god.. I'm suffering from Sinus for the past 15 years every time with a cold everyday I have to take a tablet if I don't take it it's like I'm dying & I don't take I tablet I take 2 to 4 tablets a day..for the past 15 years I'm taking this tablet.. if anyone takes 1 tablet will feel drowsy but I'm not able to take this Sinus cant eat anything cant go out I'm allergy to dust etc.. I'm not able to enjoy any food or drink any juice my Sinus is so bad.. Since of late I'm feeling not feeling normal I'm having severe back pain, can't use my hands & legs properly like something is happening to my full body I'm totally in pain not able to Express myself to anyone.. My husband smokes 4 packets a day, he drinks every night causes lots of trouble to us hitting my kids fighting with me every night problems every day problems, he smokes weed that's a type of drug which he puts in his cigarette.. My husband as no respect for me even if I'm with him on the bike he looks at any girls, Ladies or women I feel so bad even my kids tell me that he looks at ladies I'm feeling so bad & so depressed.. If I tell him to sit he stands..if I tell him not to go out he goes out..if I tell him don't do that he does it on purpose only listens to his sister.. I also want him to make us important in our lives we also need love affection respect peace happiness etc which I never saw for so many years.. Even we cant celebrate a birthday their is a fight the previous day always for any kids birthday or even our birthdays.. Even if its Christmas, New Year , Easter there is a fight in my house not day goes of well.. My kids & myself are getting mad.. I'm like a mental lady.. We never saw a birthday or a good day without a fight.. We are so anxious to see those days but when the day comes it's a fight I'm crying and messaging u.. Pastor Benny Hinn pls pray for My husband to change all his bad ways, Pls pray for him to change & be kind to us, show us love, show us what's affection, pray that we should have peace give up par jis bad habits, give me respect for a women which all ladies get nut I don't get.. Pls pray that he will stop listening to his Sisters, Especially that Sister who broke up my house & now wants to take him away from me & my kids,Pray that he should stop listening to his Aunties & his Brother in law.. I really having a very tough time for so many years just want to put a end to my life.. pray that he should listen to me & no one else & stop using words or hitting my kids.. Pray for us to be in good health & pray for my Sinus shoyld leave me and I should be cured of all my pain too. I was so pretty now my features are gone I'm become so ugly i cant believe Im become like this now i lost my colour too.. i don't know what is happening pls pray & that I should get back my prettiness .. What ever is wrong with me pray that I should become pretty again .. Pastor Benny Hinn I'm so sorry for typing such a long msg to you pls pray & ask God to help me to have peace, happiness, love, affection,understanding ,change my husband, keep my kids & my husband & myself in good health , Financially we are down pray for us to come up in life & get good jobs & we are wanting to see good days which we never saw, My husband should stop his fighting & listen to me not his sister.. Pray for us to go back to Chennai we have sone debit unless we clear it we can go back to Chennai.. In praying so hard that some one will help us to pay our debit it's around 3,00,000 lakhs Thank u Brother & Godbless..