jraaron
Prayer Warrior
Dear My Lord, thank you for reminding me through Pastor David that you never give up on me. I almost give up on taking faith in You because my prayers haven't been answered and I just can't go on any more. Everyday I think of ending my life and for the first time in my life the other day I've thought about ending my life and my children's. If I don't have strength to go on, what's the point of my kids maintaining their lives without their mum and dad? Then, my mind came to reality after a few minutes and I was so shocked to myself that I was even thinking of this. I felt sick to my stomach. Then this morning, at my church, You woke me up through Pastor David sermon that God may never answer your prayer but He always has purpose and meanings for why things are happening the way they are happening. Thank you for holding me back and making me realize that you still love me. But God, still....I'm suffering a great deal. This has been going on too long and just wears me out that I think I will be broken into pieces. Should I just give up my life here and go back to my home country and start a new life there? Is that a plan for me? I don't know. My Lord, can you give me a clear answer? crystal clear so that even a stupidest person like me can understand? I ache a lot God. My shoulders feel so heavy. Can I rest in peace now or should I keep going? Thank you. In the name of Jesus, amen.