Anagniosyne
Humble Servant of All
Dear Lord, thank you for bringing my wife home safe. She is several hours after when she would be and she is drunk. She did not attempt to help me with the kids, nor care what I had been doing. She only talked about how much fun she had and how I missed so much. I wanted us to spend time together and this came up. Maybe I have complained tonight and no doubt sinned by being angry and not trusting you to handle this. I continue to give her more space, I continue to do what is right and treat her well and respectfully. She continues to be disrespectful of me, and continues to tell me how she can’t wait to be divorced. It’s not even in a poking way Lord. It’s in a matter of fact way. I will continue to trust you, and follow your lead, I will continue to pray for her to return to you, to lean on you. She needs you Lord, she doesn’t need me, she needs you. If you must remove me from the woman I love then that is fine, what is hard for me to deal with is the loss of being around my kids and the shadiness that is going on. Please don’t misunderstand and I’m sure you don’t, I don’t want to be away from my wife, I still truly believe I can be the right kind of husband for her, if she ever gave me a chance, but as that seems to be out of the cards, then maybe the best I can do is pray that her life is wonderful and she find the man better than what she thinks she wants. Lord if I’m losing my wife and half the time with the kids, and the 20 years of a cultivated relationship with her family, then maybe you can help me be a position to care for my children fully financially. I’m not trying to make that weird situation, I just need help with what the future brings. We aren’t supposed to worry about tomorrow but it doesn’t say to not try and create a better situation. I just know that this situation is turning me rotten. I’ve been down that road before and I don’t want to go down it again, but most of this situation stems from the dark place I went years ago and how I went somewhere I should have never been. I’m asking that my wife doesn’t get that far into the darkness and I’m asking that you intervene in her life and help her find You. Forgive me of my sin and doubt, but I hurt so bad at the missed opportunity with her and the constant rejection I get.