Anagniosyne
Humble Servant of All
Dear Lord, over the years I have knowingly and unknowingly battered my wife’s mental state. This is a terrible thing to have done and a terrible thing to only realize you’ve been doing. It has caused me to push my wife so far from our marriage that she can no longer see me as a potential for being her husband. Lord I beg you please help me, please help me grow into a better man so that I may be desirable to my wife again. Help me to fight to a place where in her eyes she begins to understand what I could be for us. Part of my hurting her was my inexperience as a husband, part my misunderstanding of my role, and part because of sin. I am growing and working on all of it, working to be so much better. She even said last night, well I guess it’s for the next wife. Lord no please no, not for the next one, I want my current one, I love her, I want to help her and lead her. I want to be apart of my family all the time and not be removed in a divorce. I know she is hurting and this isn’t about me just being better. Lord help her to start removing some of the hurt, help her to see that there is a great chapter in our lives that could come, Lord most of all be with her, intervene in her life and pass along your peace and strength, your understanding and forgiveness, mercy and grace, she needs your joy and Holy Spirit, soften her heart. She has often painted me as this evil villain and takes everything I do as negatively as she can, help her to see truth. Help me to release my rage and become a better Christian husband and leader in my house, and he’ll me help her release her rage. Please keep satan and his demons away from us, they are constantly poking at the fragile marriage we have right now. Lord last night for small snippets, I felt like you were there talking to her, trying to open her eyes that if she can give this another chance she will not be disappointed. I trust you Lord, guide me to respond the right way and do what is right, help me to be motivated and productive and a good testimony to those around me. Thank you Lord and please watch over my family today.