Anagniosyne
Humble Servant of All
Dear Lord, my confession continues to cause more hurt for my wife. She has decided to leave the house for awhile. I of course have no idea where she is and if she is coming home any time soon. Lord there are group of sins in life that can destroy multiple families at one time, and the repair could be never. In my hurt anger, I fell into one and have destroyed my wife snd my marriage and soon my childrenβs lives. I know some people learn and some donβt. Lord the pain I have caused is terrible and my marriage was already ending, but I trusted in the peace you had given me about confessing and Iβve just destroyed more of my wifeβs good heart. Maybe I misunderstood but the pain I just caused her is terrible and Lord please help her. Give her your strength and peace. She needs you Lord, I am full of sin and toxic to her, she needs your comfort. She is such a great person Lord and she just comes back to You she will return to being such a great Christian. I donβt know what to pray here Lord, she already wanted a divorce from me, I didnβt add this harm to her to hurt her, but now it seems I have crushed her. Lord my sin as a husband, in that period of losing my way, is enough to have destroyed so much. There is no coming back from that, no asking forgiveness and getting a second chance. Lord I am not worthy of anything, the life you laid in front of me. I destroyed my wife, my wife whom I love more than anyone on this planet. The woman who inspires me to great heights, who has dug me out of huge holes, who stood with me for so long, whose inner beauty at one point was astounding to behold, whoβs Christian love for those around her, spread to far reaches and touched so many lives. You gave me responsibility for her and I failed You and her. I ruined a valuable child in your service. How Lord do you forgive us for such treachery, I have broken covenants and ruined innocence. And this is just the start, so much more pain will come, so much more ramification will happen, how do you continue to give forgiveness and grace? I love You Lord, I love my wife Lord. I strayed so far, I had no idea the devastation coming. You know the desire of my heart Lord, but you also know the desire of my wifeβs heart is completely different. Whatever your will is, I will follow. I trust you Lord, please forgive me and if so willing, help my wife who needs You.