Pirynn
Humble Prayer Partner
Dear Lord Jesus, While I'm planning my exit from the NICU, please help me... Please help make it come true. You're not a genie, you're not a wishing well.. I truly understand that. But, I just want to be out of there. It's an unhealthy dynamic to be in an enclosed space with angry toxic women trying to tear you down. Tear each other down. What's even worse is they take out their anger, insecurities on the babies by nitpicking them on their looks. The workload is also routine, not much happening. I wanted complex cases, I wanted my head to be stimulated with lots of learning, I wanted to be a really good nurse. But somehow I feel like a glorified babysitter in the NICU. I had a coworker who said "I don't like Ma'am Pirynn" while I was in the room, and even accused me of trying to be busy and flirting with the men like the junior interns and the doctors. Instead of trying to hyperfocus on my job, because I am not that busy, I really hear their words. It seems like nothing I do will ever be enough because they already decided they don't like me or anything I do. Lord Jesus, You are the Almighty. I'm sure you've heard them, seen what they're doing. It's hurting me and what's hurting me might hurt my patients too. Please Lord. Send me out. Lead me to where I can glorify You, rather than lead me away from You. I feel like the worst version of my self in this place. Please Lord Jesus. Please please please, let the NSO accept my pleas of moving out of the NICU and somewhere where I can truly be happy. Please and Thank You. Love You! In Jesus' Name We Pray, Amen