Haftgal
Disciple of Prayer
Dear lord Jesus, I'm in urgent need of your help. I have been suffering with my mental health for 6 years. In 2015 my pastor gave a prophecy that my half brother who I never knew would commit suicide which he did. My father would proceed to say that he asked him whether he will ever lose a child to suicide again or not. Now the problem is I cannot remember what father relayed told me and my sister. Whether my pastor said you will never lose another child to suicide or he said "fine I will tell you what you want to hear* and only said that to him(my father) because he didn't want to accept the reality that he is going to lose another child to suicide. I have a strong feeling that if he(my pastor) said I'll tell you what you want to hear I'm going to commit suicide and go to hell.Tom he said one of us (my sister and I)will become very successful and leave and never to be seen. Please i don't want me or my sister to commit suicide because it will really hurt my father who is is a good man and does everything to be a good father. He may not be rich, famous or particularly big but he is the best father I could have ever asked for. I would also would like to forgive my mother for all the sexual and emotional abuse she put through since before I even started school, it's very hard for me to because I don't understand why she hates me so much, so pls I need help forgiving.If either me or my sister does become successful and never comes back pls I don't care if I never amount to anything in my life as long as Me and my sister never commit suicide I'm happy. If I do commit suicide or die a young death I want have security that I will go to heaven. I'm asking for a free meal ticket to heaven,but thought that I'm in hell would absolutely destroy my father and I do not want that. Pls I pray in Jesus christ name Amen